Thursday, February 7, 2019

Sync



I had a dream
I fell out of space and time
I ran through corridors of moment
Desperate to find my way back
To my temporal space
Trying not to look to my right, where the future
Bared itself, real and ready
Or re-witness the past
I don't want to know
I kept seeking a present
That made sense
To find my way back

But I woke up still running
The beat of my heart still
Out of sync
Too slow, too fast
Still searching
In a world
Where I've lost inertia
I fell off the merry-go-round
As it spins out of time
Just a blur, a schism
Nothing to grasp on to
In this lumbering gravity

Living at a slower pace
I've seen leaves turn red
Then fall and turn to stone
I've watched thousands of butterflies take flight
Regenerating into forests
I've held a dying star in my hand
Watched galaxies congeal and melt
Where the cosmic colors converge
And tendrils of life seek then recede

But I never found my way back
I lost my present
And now this body always drags slightly
Behind the beat
Yet still
I am home




2 comments:

  1. "I fell off the merry-go-round
    As it spins out of time"
    This line reminds me of the John Lennon song "Watching the Wheels" which is how I felt after being forced to 'drop out' due to illness.
    I'm sorry that you have been dealing with these difficult feelings.
    Thank you for your poetry which I have read and re-read (and will probably keep returnint to) and the musical inspiration. "Lift me back up to the sun. I choose to live"
    I hope the sun is back in view by the time you read this message. xx

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  2. This is beautiful, powerful, heartbreaking, and so on-target, my friend. I have read it several times and plan on rereading it, is there is so much there. I'm amazed that you able to produce such beautiful work while struggling with so many physical challenges. That's not easy to do and is a testament to your strength. You really are quite a gifted poet. I didn't know this about you. I hope that you are able to continue writing poetry. I think of you often. Much love from my bed to yours. xoxoxo

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